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everything goes quiet and fades into the background
my whole body is tense and knowing and waiting for
and my eyes feel hot and want to shut so the
and there’s no respite from this daynightdaynight hell
my spine hits the pavement as i curl up and bang my
my makeup is on my fingers and the knees of my jeans
that dull dragging ache crawls up to the back of my throat
but i’ll keep my mouth shut like i always have
and i can still feel the cool curve of the metal on my back
so it doesn’t risk drowning out the silence in
the absence of your presence
my whole body is tense and knowing and waiting for
some relief like in those moments before
a yawn that never comes
and my eyes feel hot and want to shut so the
tears fucking useless don’t come anymore
just as you cannot either
and there’s no respite from this daynightdaynight hell
of catching breaths and hiccups and silent
full mouth till your lungs are empty screams
my spine hits the pavement as i curl up and bang my
wrists on the sandstone slanting step just pounding and
counting to a number where the pain kind of stops is lessened and relocates
to somewhere i can see
my makeup is on my fingers and the knees of my jeans
and it’s black and smudgy and mixed with water
in a shape that’s more real than you ever were
that dull dragging ache crawls up to the back of my throat
and just hangs there and recesses back into the walls
in waves that are warm and jagged
but i’ll keep my mouth shut like i always have
you’ll be able to tell because my lips are still crackedroughbleeding
yet that’s not the only part of me that is
and i can still feel the cool curve of the metal on my back
and feel you pressed against me and what i said was true.
even my left eye is crying.
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i’m a horribly selfish person.
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i don’t mind swearing, but i usually like to leave it out of my writing. sometimes that doesn’t work out.
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i don’t know what to say. this hurts. but it doesn’t. see? i have no idea what i’m trying to say.
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i’m a horribly selfish person.
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i don’t mind swearing, but i usually like to leave it out of my writing. sometimes that doesn’t work out.
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i don’t know what to say. this hurts. but it doesn’t. see? i have no idea what i’m trying to say.
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"my makeup is on my fingers and the knees of my jeans
and it’s black and smudgy and mixed with water
in a shape that’s more real than you ever were"
Jeeeeesus. That fucking kills me. You have no idea how many times you've had me all choked up the last couple days...
and it’s black and smudgy and mixed with water
in a shape that’s more real than you ever were"
Jeeeeesus. That fucking kills me. You have no idea how many times you've had me all choked up the last couple days...